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my mother said to me that she read that the parents of a young man who killed himself said that the most important thing parents can teach, must teach, their children, is optimism. she asked me, with tears almost just welling in her eyes as she thought of that dead young man, or perhaps of me dead, a suicide, hadn't she taught me optimism? and i said no, mom, you told me to always hope for the best but expect the worst and that is what i have always done. and she said oh! well this guy that i read said that you have to know that everything is going to turn out all right in the end and I said well it's too late now.